Being Content With Nothing

As far as material things go, I have none of the things I "want" right now. I wanted my baby. My husband and I want our house to sell. I have a list of wants and none of them are happening. It's frustrating and unsettling. I am constantly looking on my phone for a puppy to buy, a house to look at, baby name sites. But none of those actions bring me any closer to feeling satisfied. 

But all along, through all of the great times and all of the terrible moments, I've always had everything I need. Love. I've always known I am a child of God. That He loves me with a love greater than the universe. He formed me from nothing and had plans for me before I was born. He wants nothing more than to see me bring Him joy and to prosper. 

But before this loss, I managed to forget some of that. I was focused on what I needed from the world. I needed a new house, a baby, a job.  I had a great new marriage and the future was bright, but I lost sight of serving and focusing on my Heavenly Father. I just pray that I can use this time to get my priorities straight, in my relationship with God, my marriage, and in my heart. 

God's love is too important to miss out on just to obtain gifts of this world. 

Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding. In all your ways know, recognize, and acknowledge Him, and He will direct and make straight and plain your paths. (Proverbs 3:5, 6 AMP)

Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way. (James 1:2-4 MSG)